**Squeezing The Old Corners Within**
As we go through many inner walls about the self with the help of the Leo Sun, Jupiter, we are also getting pulled back to the other side of the subconscious and conscious meetings because of Saturn in Scorpio as well. We all feel their clashing and shaking off within whatever has left to transform from the old patterns. It is not easy to see the reflections, and how much we hold our projections over others when actually the only key to focus is the self. The self feels scary to deal with. So many people escape from this hardcore self-lessons and projections. It is like you are so trying to share your heart with someone and they listen to you but they say you sound stupid. smile emoticon We feel the fragility, sensitivity and vulnerability. How can you take the hard criticism over something you hold dearly? It feels hurtful when you open yourself up so wide and see how much you are touching the raw points that could make you go back to the comfort zone of being the same. We hear, see and touch the inner places where we make circles about how we push and pull our energies with outside. The self awareness brings self realization where we get our own energy field attracting the certain type of lessons, people and energies around us. Do we get enough of the big signs of repeating cycles? Especially if you are learning/mastering "detachment" you experience this type of discomforts and disappointment lessons to be reminded and stay awake. Nothing goes right and people who you are about to get so comfortable and ready to lean on ...leaves you speechless or do something to make you go crazy to the opposite side.
You might go through the self tunnel where everything seems dark because more we go see what we have been in those dark room the more we see how much that inner child doesn't want to cry and complain anymore. It could feel like the little child is a teenager or grown up now where it knows how it feels to be left alone, how it feels to be rejected and wounded. Now we are at the threshold where we know how not to put that inner child/grown up in to that situation anymore. Even though action it seems everything is so edgy and tough to deal with...just imagine at least you are aware of them ...before you weren't even aware of these self-realizations.
The mind will be more wild since it recognizes these inner transformations so it is best to express and see how it makes us stuck and vulnerable with each huge progress. One by one the each old patterns has to be recognized within so we can see what and how we were stuck in these patterns. You could feel how you are squeezing each inner corner to meet with the one zero point within. Even it feels like so hard and you are going backwards, just recognize how easy it gets to stay observer and catching your center with All That Is. Your mind will attack to keep you in to the old way of being and thinking but your new connection with this vibrational level will keep you out of those loops. If you feel like you can't cope with anything meaning comprehend anything logically with these changes, just hang on to the feeling of inner expansion where you feel you are breathing and catching who is breathing in. Stay as an observer and see how much you invest into the whats so not matching and whats lifting and keeping you centered with. What you go towards naturally is the way to the heart and your authentic self connection from that zero point that you cultivate daily. Your compass will be feeling light, fear-free, simple but natural, responding from the center of that one unified field self. What is keeping you away from these will be so obvious for you to release them. Stand still and be brave to face with these reflections. Remember you are ready to face them therefore you are facing with them at this stage. Trust in the process. And charge up the light...to the top.
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Love,
Denize —
As we go through many inner walls about the self with the help of the Leo Sun, Jupiter, we are also getting pulled back to the other side of the subconscious and conscious meetings because of Saturn in Scorpio as well. We all feel their clashing and shaking off within whatever has left to transform from the old patterns. It is not easy to see the reflections, and how much we hold our projections over others when actually the only key to focus is the self. The self feels scary to deal with. So many people escape from this hardcore self-lessons and projections. It is like you are so trying to share your heart with someone and they listen to you but they say you sound stupid. smile emoticon We feel the fragility, sensitivity and vulnerability. How can you take the hard criticism over something you hold dearly? It feels hurtful when you open yourself up so wide and see how much you are touching the raw points that could make you go back to the comfort zone of being the same. We hear, see and touch the inner places where we make circles about how we push and pull our energies with outside. The self awareness brings self realization where we get our own energy field attracting the certain type of lessons, people and energies around us. Do we get enough of the big signs of repeating cycles? Especially if you are learning/mastering "detachment" you experience this type of discomforts and disappointment lessons to be reminded and stay awake. Nothing goes right and people who you are about to get so comfortable and ready to lean on ...leaves you speechless or do something to make you go crazy to the opposite side.
You might go through the self tunnel where everything seems dark because more we go see what we have been in those dark room the more we see how much that inner child doesn't want to cry and complain anymore. It could feel like the little child is a teenager or grown up now where it knows how it feels to be left alone, how it feels to be rejected and wounded. Now we are at the threshold where we know how not to put that inner child/grown up in to that situation anymore. Even though action it seems everything is so edgy and tough to deal with...just imagine at least you are aware of them ...before you weren't even aware of these self-realizations.
The mind will be more wild since it recognizes these inner transformations so it is best to express and see how it makes us stuck and vulnerable with each huge progress. One by one the each old patterns has to be recognized within so we can see what and how we were stuck in these patterns. You could feel how you are squeezing each inner corner to meet with the one zero point within. Even it feels like so hard and you are going backwards, just recognize how easy it gets to stay observer and catching your center with All That Is. Your mind will attack to keep you in to the old way of being and thinking but your new connection with this vibrational level will keep you out of those loops. If you feel like you can't cope with anything meaning comprehend anything logically with these changes, just hang on to the feeling of inner expansion where you feel you are breathing and catching who is breathing in. Stay as an observer and see how much you invest into the whats so not matching and whats lifting and keeping you centered with. What you go towards naturally is the way to the heart and your authentic self connection from that zero point that you cultivate daily. Your compass will be feeling light, fear-free, simple but natural, responding from the center of that one unified field self. What is keeping you away from these will be so obvious for you to release them. Stand still and be brave to face with these reflections. Remember you are ready to face them therefore you are facing with them at this stage. Trust in the process. And charge up the light...to the top.
heart emoticon heart emoticon
Love,
Denize —
